I’m going to be gone from this point forward to the 5th of August for a trip up to New Hampshire!! So I’m going to be taking lots of pictures while I’m out, and I’ll tag them as #ashtonssummer2014



Remember in 1993 when Jurassic Park was like…the end all, be all of special effects?


not gonna lie that still looks intimately real

"I started noticing that I was just really sad all the time, and really like, having a lot of trouble …… just getting out of bed in the morning, and like, things were bothering me. Basically the short version of this story is; I had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and it was undiagnosed and I didn’t really know what it was. OCD kind of feeds on your imagination, so it’s different for everybody. But for me, it was that everything in my mind would not stop connecting - like I had too many associations constantly happening in my mind, and as a result I couldn’t do anything. So like, let’s say I wanted to go bike riding; when I was struggling with it, my mind would be racing constantly, and it would be like: I’d have an image in my head riding a bike, and then I’d think of me riding a bike when I was a kid back home, then I’d start thinking about home, and then I’d start thinking "well, my ex-girlfriend is in my hometown, I don’t like my ex-girlfriend, therefore I can’t go bike riding". Like my mind would associate everything until it would get to something that made me sad, and then I couldn’t disconnect the sad thing from what I wanted to do. And as a result I just couldn’t do anything. There was a period— I almost failed out of school because of it; because I couldn’t go to my classes, I didn’t really leave my apartment for maybe like, five months. And I’ll never forget, it was the weirdest thing; I was at my friend Adam’s house and I was sitting on the computer, and I said something and he was like "dude, just stop obsessing about that shit". And it was just one of those weird unconscious things, and I just randomly typed in "obsession" into Google search and all these pages on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder came up and I started reading about it, and I just fucking immediately started crying; ‘cause I was like "oh my God, I’m not fucking crazy - I just have this thing". For me, the moment I found out what it was - as soon as it had a name, I had a focal point from which to attack it from, and then I was like "if it’s a ‘disease’, then it has a cure". That’s why I tell people: don’t be scared to go to therapy. Don’t think of it as like, a sign of weakness to ask for help if you’re feeling sad because there’s people out there who want to help you and are qualified to help you. So they put me on, I think it was Prozac. I was supposed to be on it for an indefinite period of time; and one of the misconceptions about those types of drugs is that they’re ‘happy pills’ - they’re definitely not. They don’t make you happy, they just even things out in your mind so you can think clearly and solve your own problems. It’s amazing because I think back to those times, which now seem so distant - they were over a decade ago, and …. I’m just so happy now; like, all the fucking time, because I know what it’s like to be sad. Oh yeah, so that’s when I went to France as an exchange student, and that really helped me too - going to a totally new place and seeing different environments and just being like "hey, you know what - the world isn’t what I thought it was; there’s a lot more to it that I haven’t seen". So there was this really pretty lake in the middle of the town I was staying in, and I was on Prozac for, I guess, six months. And then while I was out there I was like "I don’t fucking need this shit anymore; I just …. feel good, and I’m done". And I took the pill bottle and threw it into the lake. It was one of the most satisfying personal moments." [x]

 - Sakura Kiss String Version
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On the other hand.. This makes me smile! If I ever were to get married, I’d want this to be playing…






i don’t get this. why does this have so many notes. does it have to do with the type of ice cream? Napoleon ice cream? Napoleon Bonaparte? is that Napoleon Bonaparte’s hand?

nobody explain

#this is a gross joke and you wasted ice cream good job




YO, so I lost my tablet pen and it’s a whopping $100 for a new one!! Basically all my savings are gone because I’m buying stuff for school. SO I’m offering traditional commissions or digital commissions for those who are willing to wait for after I get my pen back. 

Send me an ask if you’re interested! 

Traditional sketch: 5 - 10 USD 

Traditional colored sketch: 8 - 15 USD 

Digital sketch: 5 - 10 USD

Colored sketch: 10-20 USD

Pixel: 1 - 5 USD 

hey is there anything that you would prefer tagged? like anything that triggers you? sorry to bother.


#straight sex

My favorite Creature ice cream flavor.

Hey, by the way, I just want to address that I’d much rather get messages off anon, if possible… I appreciate the compliments and whatnot, but I’d rather get it from someone  can put a face to…!

Ahhh your hair matches your eyes 😍! Or atleast that's what it looks like in the picture (: cute

Thanks! I didn’t know that they did, but that’s kinda cool…!

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